Embodiment, Intuition, and the Emergence of Light Essence
If you haven’t read Part One yet, I recommend starting there to understand the roots of this journey.
Read Part One: The Journey Before Light Essence
Part One was about the roots, this part is about the unfolding.
This is where the awakening stopped being subtle and started becoming embodied. Where my body became the messenger, and intuition became non-negotiable.
When the Body Refused to Carry the Old World
After my grandmother passed, my body and mind began to change.
Fatigue came in waves. Emotions surfaced without warning. Old injuries flared. Anxiety lived in my chest and gut. It felt like layers were being peeled away physically, emotionally, energetically.
At the time, I didn’t realise I was leaving survival mode.
My body was no longer willing to hold what wasn’t aligned.
Rest became essential. Slowness unavoidable. My nervous system demanded honesty.
But amongst all of this I felt closer to her than I had in much of my adult years whilst she was alive. It’s not that anything happened or that we drifted apart, it’s just that adult life was demanding. I had a career that I worked hard at, a social life, we lived in different cities, Islands for that matter and undiagnosed ADHD also meant I was quite slack at keeping in touch but this never watered down my love for my grandma or the fact I thought about her every single day.
Intuition as a Lived Experience
I had moments in life that felt stagnant and I didn’t really know what way I was going so I was drawn to a few readings.
My Grandma of course came through instantly as she does with every reading I’ve had since. These readings were the acceleration to my awakening. They offered guidance, connection, they made me aware of symbols and patterns that would reoccur through my life, and of course, proof to me that there is more to this physical reality and upon reflection, that’s what accelerated it. The confirmation and the integration of belief.
My outlook on life was changing. I stopped forcing decisions.
My body answered before my mind could rationalise. Yes felt expansive and calm. No felt tight and draining. I learned to trust sensation over logic.
Dreams intensified. Messages arrived through symbols rather than words. Songs played at exact moments lyrics landing like responses to prayers.
Bluebirds still appeared.
Rainbows still followed release.
Life continued speaking and now, I was listening.
I began meditating and I was blown away by the messages that came through to me when I quietened my mind enough and set deep intention. Had this always been here?
Subtle voices, visions, feelings, knowings… This is something I had actually always experienced while I was driving or showering, or busy doing my creative work but I always shrugged off as noise.
Often the meditation was fragmented and made no sense but I would journal it down to refer back to later. Even if it was just one word.
Then over time, I started picking up full stories, many from the past. My own lives, other people’s lives, always something that held trauma or an echo that was waiting to be an acknowledged and released.
The Collapse of Old Identities
As I changed, and my awareness expanded, my life reorganised itself.
Roles fell away. Relationships shifted. Identities dissolved. What once fit no longer did. Things that once brought me external validation no longer did so, things that used to be important to me weren’t, and surface level gossip and material things became almost irrelevant to me.
This wasn’t destruction.
It was recalibration.
I was shedding versions of myself built for survival, not sustainability.
Returning to the Feminine
This happened this year (2025) One of the deepest shifts was returning to my feminine not as an aesthetic, but as a state of being.
Receiving instead of forcing.
Resting instead of pushing.
Feeling instead of overriding.
Sensitivity became a strength. Intuition sharpened. Creativity returned.
I stopped apologising for my needs and life immediately shifted. I was no longer chasing what I thought my life should be, I was no longer in the hustle game, and I felt like everything I wanted, the universe was finally delivering.
The ultimate receiving energy and it still blows my mind to this day!
Light Essence Arrived Softly
Light Essence didn’t arrive as a plan.
It arrived as a frequency.
A remembering.
A quiet yes that wouldn’t leave.
The name carried weight immediately, familiar, ancient, inevitable.
Light Essence became a container for lived wisdom, not performance.
This journey continues…
Read Part Three: Embodying The Awakening
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With love & light,
J♡
